Bangkok log part 6

Today I am a week post-op, the swelling has subsided considerably. I had my check-up at the doctor’s clinic today at 8:30am. Everything is going very well he said, and his assistant said I was doing a really good job with the cleaning myself. All things what they are I’m staying 30 to 40 minutes away from the doctor’s clinic and I don’t see him every day like his other patients, so I feel I need to be extra diligent in my duties. The stitching and swelling are still not as good as he would like and dilation did not start today, he said he would re-check on Friday to see about dilation. As I have said all along depth is really not my biggest goal from SRS. That said I am curious how much depth I did get. I know the longer I wait to start dilation the less depth I will have but that is nothing I’m all to worried about. I have the woman I Love, and sex is not the driving factor in our relationship.

On the way to the clinic today we drove over a low bridge in the city near a temple, and I saw a crocodile swimming in the river. This was right in the city, it really amazes me how large this city is, how many people are in it, and the extent of the wild-life running, flying, swimming or hanging around in it there is. Helen and I really enjoy sitting outside at night listening to the frogs that reside just off the patio in a rainwater pond. The rain here is something, when the sky cuts lose it really rains hard. I have always loved the sound of the rain so this is quite nice to listen to for me.

I have cut my pain medication by more then half and I hope to continue to do so. I plan to keep a few for the trip home on the off chance the pain becomes to much. With any luck by June I’ll be completely off the pain medication. I hate taking pills. Speaking of pills, I no longer need to take spiro, and from the sounds of it my estrogen is going to be cut down to 1mg a day. As I am no longer fighting against the testosterone factory. I’m off the estrogen till June 7^th, and when I get back I’ll look into a pill-splitter, as all I have are 2mg pills.

While at the clinic Tami took Helen and I to a place called Big C, its like a Super K-Mart, in that it has food and a bunch of other stuff. We picked up a few things for the next couple of days; snacks, water, a beer for Helen and some donuts. The donuts I got are nice and mildly sweet. If I would have got them back in Toledo they would have been so damn sugary they would have hurt my teeth to eat them.

I have to admit that while I do really like it here, I am looking forward to getting back home. I want to start getting things together to help Helen get her surgery, and get things sorted out for her to come to the States where we will build a life together.

I miss my daughter, and not a day has passed here that I do not think about her. She really wanted to come with Helen and I here. She is a really good kid, and I got really lucky with her.

Its Thursday and today is our day to take things easy. I don’t need to go to the clinic and we have food for a few days. We went down to the kitchen and Helen made us both some soup. It was nice to just sit with her she is so calm here I really like this. I do hope when we live together she is half as relaxed. I Love her so much. This whole trip she has been my friend, Love, caregiver, and encourager. I don’t think I would be nearly as active were it not for her.

We also started laundry (got to love it vacation in Thailand and I’m doing washing and enjoying myself) and I had to wash my lose fitting pants. So I decided to try to get into a pair of jeans. Much to my surprise they fit, and were not uncomfortable. I recently noticed one thing though; they really do fit me differently on the front. I never thought about that.

I cut myself down on the pain medication today, I’m down from 4000mg of Tylenol a day to 1500mg a day. The discomfort is tolerable to me, though I do feel it more. I’m sure this is the only way to move past it.

I’m managing to get up and down stair a bit more now. Though it is a single flight it is still an improvement over where I have been. I am in no way near the 48 to 52 flights of stairs I was at before I had the surgery, but I will get there.

With any luck my next visit to the doctor’s clinic I’ll be starting dilation. This makes me nervous. For one its going to hurt like hell (from what I’ve heard). For another I’ll find out what I have as far as depth goes (I am curious). The thing that is nagging at me most is I don’t know what it will “feel” like outside of that. Will I react in a positive way or a negative way? Will I tense up and try to avoid penetration, will it feel more natural and I’ll be able to relax, will it be some blend of the two, or a yet unforeseen reaction. There i only one way to find out.

~ by twisteddiva on 15 May, 2008.